Overwhelmed.

“I know you can be overwhelmed, and you can be underwhelmed,
but can you ever just be whelmed?”
10 Things I Hate About You

 I have been very absent from my blog lately, due to having just too many thoughts going through my head lately and not wanting to bog this blog down with heavy stuff.

But, as you may have guessed from the title and the quote – I am overwhelmed. There is just too much going on right now.

The Boy and I are in the process of trying to find a cheaper apartment, to save money for wedding; I’m trying to plan said wedding; I’ve taken on some freelance, to earn some extra money, but it means I have no free time. And then there’s general life things that keep cropping up and I just can’t seem to catch a break – or my breath – lately.

It’s hard to find somewhere to move when you’ve lived in the same place for nearly 6 years. Almost our entire relationship has taken place in this apartment, it’s hard to let go of all the memories here. We’re also faced with the fact that downsizing and saving means going for somewhere that may not be entirely fantastic. We currently live in a really nice apartment, but we’re also paying for that niceness. At this point in our relationship, I’d like to be moving up – possibly to a house – but the reality is, to save money we’ll need to move down on the apartment ladder. Give up some luxuries, give up the extra space. And it’s hard to do that, while still finding somewhere we can be comfortable in for the next year or two.

All I want is a home with hardwood floors, a porch and a fenced in backyard for Ghost to play in. Is that too much for a girl to ask?

At least, among all the stress, we took some time to spend the evening together on Valentine’s Day. I’m not too keen on the holiday. I’m not one of those people who reject it or bash it for all that it stands for and I’m also not someone who’s going to get upset if I come home to discover my significant other hasn’t set up a city-wide treasure hunt with clues of poetry, ending in a pot of chocolates and roses. We had thought to go see The Lego Movie, to be honest.

Buuuut… we got our second flat tire in two weeks, so instead we spent money to repair that.. again. Thank you, Penn Dot. So we stayed in. We ordered Chinese, drank wine and watched a “Love” movie marathon in our PJs. He had never seen Moulin Rouge, so we watched that – and he loved it. Then we watched The Fountain, a personal favorite of ours from our very first months of dating. And I admit.. I made him watch an episode or two of my favorite Doctor Who. Okay, so we like tragic love stories. We had planned to watch more (Baz Luhrman’s Romeo + Juliet!) but me + wine after a work day = sleep by 1am.

Unfortunately, I do not have the holiday off tomorrow. But I believe my clients do, so at least it’ll be a slow day at work, which can sometimes be a bad thing, but I will just try and make the most of it. Then again, maybe I’ll sneak my e-reader in…..

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